你爱我吗？

你是真的爱我吗？

我为你变了。你难到一点也没感动吗？

Do you actually cares?

I really dunno.

What to do ?
I find it so difficult to make u happy uh.

I can only see,nothing i could do.

I hate it seriously,so what?

Sleep at 4 plus last night.
Actually going to watch movie but cant find people go la.
Actually got one person can call,but i forgot.lols.

Wake up at 11 plus,tired.

Ah kim very funny la,talk to me very nice then keep yell or shout at ying.lols.

Find it so weird.

Keep rushing ying go bath cause she is a slow person la.

Wa really can drag the time very long la.

We went out at 12 plus i think.

Off to northpoint,have our meal and movie.

Went foodcourt makan first then off for movie.

We watch The Unborn.

Okay la quite nice,super less people watch can,less then ten la.

And stupid ying keep pull my shirt say er xin la and whatever shit.

Somemore still got shout a bit,omg!hahas.

I was like sitting down there,abit ps la.

After movie went aunty house.

At there awhile then went downstair eat.

Then back again,dillin was there today.wahahas.

Cant stand him la,forever wont change.

Pull my hair,bite me jump over me.

Ask who is ying,he say ahbunehneh..wth..hahas.

Overall he is cute..lols.

Lobang ah bang kor kor car back.

Reach home at 6 plus.

Parent going out for dinner but never tag along cause i was tired.

How can i make things better?

Stupid ying sleep liao.

I am so sian now.

Cant sleep la,all because...hais:(

Today was okay ba but still dunno wnt type what leh.

Moring went for match,was super sian.

Maybe go tution will be better la.

Reach home at 3 plus.

Today got baibai thing again is like forever la.

End at around 9 plus,today end early.hahas.

Father fetch everybody back to yishun.

Then i follow and go ying house.

Before going her house go slack with desmond and bernard.

Go over desmond friend sintua awhile.

And back to void deck slack with his friend.

Actually going pek san chun,ask huaiping along.

But end up never all very tired liao.

Slack until 12 plus go up cousin house find her.

So now i was at her house liao.

Very sian so come here post something.

Thinking where to go now cause really very very sian la.

Lols.

sorry to u.

no more next time.

sorry:(

I am tired.

So lazy to type out everything.

School end very early today at 10 plus.

Then headed to hougang there for something.

Then home bath and out.

Meet eeni first then peisze.

Then go amk hub for movie and shopping.

Watch hotel for dogs,quite nice.

Then keep walking around dunno wan do what.

So in the end bus to marina parade.

Then go there shop alot.

Pasta for dinner today,yummy.

Then peisze father fetch us home,but i go boonkeng find desmond them.

Watch people da ri zi again.

Then after that go toa pa yeo dunnno for what.

After that sent them back to yishun and home sweet home.

Oh ya oh ya,i tell you all.

Peisze and eeni super li hai can,they can alot.

I swear for me i really think alot.

They keep eat non-stop la,so scary.wahahas.

Okay waiting for my itouch to finish charging then will off for my sleep.

Have to wake up early,tmr have friendly.tired:(

Nights people:)

School was boring as usual.

Pe run 2.4 failed by 25s.lols.

Afternoon training,then heartland mall.

And then home sweet home.

it's so different now!

anyone can tell me wht to do?

how can i make you happy sia,i really dunno.

where does the problem lies?

my attitue did not change ma?

i dun think so.

or are there some other reason??

School was boring.

Everyday also happen the same thing what.

Just that today super late dismiss can,going 3 then dismiss.

Wth..

Okay i going do my maths homework liao.hahas.

I know i am not so guai.lols.

how i hope the person you msg will be me:(

Nothing to say.

Just that i feel so tired.

Seriously i am tired.

i am pissed off:(

Today wake up at 7,almost cant wake up la.

Cause last night too late sleep le or can did not sleep at all?hahas.

Everyday will be having attire check,crazy sia.lols.

Anyway first period was english,sleep again cause is like dun need listen de la.

Second period is cme,was like slacking,talking and finding jeanne phone.

End up her phone a joanne bag whereby she has already went home la.lols.

Then pe lesson did not run cause have match today.wahahas.

Then recess nothing much to say about it.

Maths lesson,omg two period 1 and a half hour.

Was fcuking sian can,also dunno what he teaching la!!

K nevermind then chem lesson,have alkanes test today,of cause i dun know how to do la.

Wahahas.

Then after that jiu pon chiness lessona nd off for match.

Anyway lost 3 points again.yea again.lols.

Reach school at around 6.45 think,very late la.

Then have dinner with peisze and eeni at coffee shop.

After dinner bus home with eeni.

Home sweet home at 8.30:)

i am scare,you know?

Was almost at home whole day.

Wake up at 11 plus,watching tv and blah blah.

And my whole body dunno why feel so pain.

Cause of whatever cause that person say whatever.lols.
Until 5 plus meet eeni and went amk.
Went there walk walk and bought my school shoe.
Then headed to pizza hut for our dinner.
Yummy yummy plus very full.hahas.
Then reach home at 8 plus:)
Pics was with the stupid eeni,wait for her to online to get the pic.lols.

I am very broke now!

I am serious,no money to spent liao.must save liao la:0

i cant stop thinking la.

cause i am scare:(

Morning wake up at 8.30 sharp,bath and do whatever thing i need.

Then off for tution.

OMG!

Stuck in the train for half an hour.

Then move on to next stop.

Every stop,stop for 10 minutes.

Wa,super long can!!!

Then reach kovan liao is like going 11 le,so just alight la.

Never go for tution,so i need to make up on tuesday la:(

K nevermind then bus home from kovan.

At home slack slack,around 2 plus went out.

Bus 136 to kovan,then 113 to meet peisze.

Then bus 62 go find eeni.

After that we train down to expo for addida sales.

Went there,but inside like nothing.

So at there less an hour and went off.

While going take,i saw someone that jeanne hate most if i am not wrong!ahahas.

Went down town for sakura buffe.

Eat until super full,all feel like vomit.lols.

Then went e-hub,cause eeni wan to buy new slipper.

After that cab to my house.

At my house slacking and took some pictures.hahas.

They went off at 10 plus.

Today ah di bday,have steamboat this time.

But today never play cake la,cause the aunties all dun allow.not fun sia.

K la that's all for today.

Some pictres for you all:)

No chocie sat at home,my hair must be like this.lols.

Here to blog again le.
Today go somewhere near toa pa yo there have friendly.
We lost to njc by 69-91.
After match peisze,eeni,huaiping and me to toa pa yo de coffe shop have our dinner.
Then the rest went home first.
I also forgot what we eat le.hahas.
After eating can home,cause mr teo will be paying for us.hahas.
Let huaiping alight then go my house,peisze and eeni come my house chat chat.
Chat alot funny stuff,they just went off not long.hahas.
Have tution tmr,tio ps le la,jess nt going got something on.
I am very tired now but dun feel like sleeping cause....

Oh ya my room hae a weird smell,i think i dun dare to sleep tonight le.wahahas.

Scare later the wire suddenly burst then got fire.

Yea i know i am lame.hahas.

i am very scare,u know?

Yea now at needle work room doing f&n coursework.
So less people nia lor.
Should not come back sia,can sleep longer.
But someone say too bad i already came back la.hahas.
Think will end around 1 plur or 2?hahas.
Later see who can pei me go eat,then go eat.
Then come back school again at 4,cause later have friendly against njc.
Shall post again when i am back home.
I miss u):

Happy moment only last for that long...hais
But these time i shld alr feel happy ba.
Cause i know there wont be second chance le.
I can feel that...shall nt say.
Just my feeling only,might not be real.

Hate me,don't you?
Wht can i do?

I really so fan can,fan like fcuk.
I really...

No matter wht...

Last two days did not post cause went for jeanne chalet.
And of casue HAPPY BDAY TO U:)
Monday meet jeass at 1.30 at hougang mall,but she was late.
Wait for her about half an hour,bloody long for me liao.but nevermind she sponser me cigeratte.
Reach the chalet at around 3,joanne was there liao.
Very cool sia,jeanne mother help me buy cigeratte.so good.lol.
Night time was very very fun.ahahas.
First thing we do is play card game,then doing some stupid stuff make everyone laugh.
Then we turn off all the light,and everyone sit down on the floor and say ghost story.
Then everyone tired liao,all went up to the room rest and play.
Shouting alot thing from upstair to downstiar.then downstair people shout back again.hahas.
I sleep for 15 mintues,went up and talk with the guy who did not sleep.
Around 4 plus i think,noel,jihan,joanne,sebs,dyon,shikai,derrick,weijie,joel,joanne,jess and me.
Going to red house de,but end up more and more people dunw an go,so did not go only some.
Then think jess high liao then smack my head quite hard.
I think i also abit high la i smack her very hard she like gt no feeling la.hahas.


Then tuesday morning went burger kind with jeanne and jess for breadfast,then joanne went home.
After eating went back chalet sleep,everyone was gone.
Sleep for 3 hours only it think,not long joanne jiu come le.
Then is jess and my turn to go home bath.hahas.
Reach home aa 2 plus,bath,charge phone and went back chalet.
Then blah blah blah too many things liao lazy type.
Night bbq,eat until quite full plus beer.hahas.drink very less,last night more.
Then joanne pei jess dunno go where,then me and jeanne go up talk talk.
Wa talk until i...hais.shall nt say le ba:(
Then around 11 plus,derrick,jihan,teckseng,kaijie,noel,ming xuan,timothy,joanne,jeanne and me went for midnight movie.
Watch [Push] not nice de,cause i dun like that kind of show.
After that went back chalat,play cards for the whole night.
Some alr went out for their sleep,the rest arod 7 plus like that then sleep.


Went home with derrick they all at 9 plus.
Reach home bath and sleep from 11 plus sleep until 8 plus.
Wake up feel so hungry and ate two bowl of porrige and one bowl of mee siam.hahas.
Enjoy alot over there,but this two days was thinking abt...
Jeanne shld know wht i think uh.
Hais

seriously i dun feel like using com anymore la.
i dun feel like using msn to chat la.
i dun feel like blogging la.
i dun feel like see-ing ppl blog la.so suck can.
think work everyday for me will be best la.
or even die?yea yea.

everything suck can,studies suck, esp bball la!
fcuk.

after two days work,overall happy of selling 20 laptops.but but but still very moody leh,very unlike me sia..sian.anyway sat i sell 8 laptops out,and i saw weijie,ask him buy he keep say dun wan dun wan.lols.then sat wei da gt come and buy a camera should buy laptop from us also ot free camera ma.hahas.
anyway anyway today cool i sell 12 laptops out,actually only intend to sell 8 end up sell 12.super dame happy,hope my pay have 300 plus la then i can buy alot alot things liao la.hahas.and i bought my head set liao,actually is 38 dollars de,end up discount her and discount there only 30 dollars la,dame cheap:)end work at 10.30 sharp,guys was told to stay to pack up thing while girls can go off first.hahas.good right the boss..lols.then after that jiu go eat our dinner cum supper.reach home at around 12 bath and online:)
nights:)

going off work soon again..hahas.anyway anyway i sold 8 lap top yesterday,actually only wan sell 2 end up 8.wow..dame happy liao.cynthis is like crazy sold 14 she siao wan la.reena sold 9 i think.hahas.off work at 10 plus reach home ard 12 plus,super tired can.oh ya oh ya i am buying the ear piece,hahas.pink colour sia...lol.35 bucks:)kkk need off for work le,post again when i am back :)

dun feel like saying my school life and after school life today.get back result.i really think that no sec 5 for me la.i get 4 u grade,oh gosh:(
english-30
chinese-55
hum-28
science-48
maths-48
f&n-56

anyway night went out with ying,actually meet her at orchard de,change to amk hub.then again hse change to northpoint,go there liao so sian so went causeway point.actually wan to buy slipper de,but dun have our size,plaza sing have.so decide went there to get it,but half way think very sian dun feel like going so alight at kabti.went to have our dinner,we ate lao shu de wei ba..lols.after that home..tired.
oh ya oh ya who wan buy lap top?come find me come find me:)
must find me ar if u wanna buy:)

things are not same anymore,why i keep forgot?

why?

maybe shld stop msg or call u.

u might happier ba.

cause i think i am...u.

suck really suck can.

look back my post and now then i know that i am too much.sorry.

yea yea finally change my blogskins..hehes.ask ying to help me change..thanks uh:)

okay school today was alright,just that cant catch up with maths,really dun uds just becasue miss two period lor.seriously need buck up liao,casue i wan to go bakc for sec 5 yea:)anyway anyway today f&n i prepare nothing so went there just anhow make a muffin.made cheesy muffin today,inside abit dry,crack a bit but overall the texture ot bad la.but huaiping say abit salty yea and i also think so,think chees put too much le la.

today after school meet elisa for study time,huaiping join us.we go hougang ave 8 there de mac,less people ma,but end up alot kids there abit noisy lor.cant belive i copy note for chem la...lol..i know i am lame:)went off at around 5 plus,reach home at 6 i think.hahas.i going to sleep le,tired,plus dun wan to fall asleep at class liao la!hahas.i really wan to study le dun wan to think about other things anymore:)

nights:)

Some things are not easy to let go..But still,i will.For everything,your love,your concern your eveything does not belong to me anymore.Continue onto this way will only makes thing difficult for you and make me feel even more tired and heart-aching.I know is going to be a painful price for letting you go but only i does this then will make you a happier person,i will.Really thank you for all the memories,all this shall reamaind as a beautiful part of my life:)I know some things cant be force,so i wont anymore.For,your heart does not belong to me anymore...
Goodbye my love...

today okay go for 4 lesson and jiu early dismiss le.today have two period of english and chinese.,again sleep.this two days go school nevr study just sleep.anyway anyway today play final against cedar lost by 3 points.and yea all my fault go and push the number 5 and she chop 3 point..wth..if i never push we will be same score and will have over time la.

okay nvm afher match went to eat sushi with some of them nice plus full,nt really full also la.lols.reach school around 5 plus le,wait for mr teo to lobang me to boon keng,reach there just now 6 never late.

went in tcher say got test sitao sian la,like so tired liao lor still gttest to do.but at last still do la,very difficult can dun think i can pass.but i am sure i am better than jess la,jess only do 1 page at least i try all lor.lols.lame.finsih tution at 9 aunt sent us home,thanks:)going to sleep soon le,tired.

anywayanyway finally have new chair la,hahas.surprise that thaey will buy for me can..lols.

anyway should i go work?i got too many things need to do on thur,fri,sat and sunday liao la:(

i am lazy to type out today life,abit suck?whole day sleeping at school,even pe lesoon tcher talking i also sleep.lols.never run today for pe casue i am tired.jus online awhile only jiu tired liao.and i really really very tired,going to sleep soon le.waiting my hair to dry yea.tmr will be a tired day for me:(

now very jing shen sia..lols.just reach home from chalet,after that going match then back to chalet again.was playing majong with bernard,elton and desmond for whole night from around 1 plus till today morning 8 plus.but half way bernard went up sleep then eugene take over.hahas..i won 10 dollars plus i think:)wa..cannot tanhan des and eugene la,can become crazy la me and elton laugh like mad.two guy taking banna skin throwing at each other,still nevermind stupid eugen take a knife go outside say hi to ppl.using the knife doing all stupid things plus beside is ppl wedding la..wth..hahaha.alot jokes la plus funny action la..very lol la!hahha.anyway last night at there was dame fun,lucky i go..lol.i feel like falling asleep la,but still very jing shen leh,dunno what u talking also.hahas.okay need go prepare thing liao going out soon again!tired sia never slept for whole night:)hahas.

will post again ba,maybe only.lols

Jeanne lost You

Li Ying lost Her.

While Jesslyn almost lost Him.

copy from jeanne de post..super cool la this three sentence..lols.

going tution soon le:)

bye.

lol..i am here to post smth yea.today have maths test,okay alot blanks really dunno how to do.then today miss egg very different sia,give us break during lesson plus keep smile-ing today la.but still she teach what i also never listen de la,and yea pass my english common test just pass only:)after school have mt remedia,but write finish compo jiu can go le.jess and jeanne wai for me at heartland first after that i go find them.

went hongkong cafe to have our lunch,jeanne eat fish and chip me eat mee sua with spicy dunno what meat.lol.after that we order the french toast,very very nice..lols.saw reena and tong at there,so qiao la:)after eating sit there for quite long,chat smth.we 3 cried for same thing plus same time.wth...think of those thing really so fcuk so angry la can.after finish our chat,walk to bus stop and home.

oh ya jeanne say that on her bday wan to try sniff glue,lol.high and fun uh..lols.

i am working at it fair again at next thur to sun,who wan buy laptop come find me uh.

hahas.

anyway anyway who is free tmr afternoon?

ya ya frend uh

i dun think u think uh

now at school com lap..lols.doing the careers things for dunno what.

sian after school got mt remedia..

will post again when i am home:)

mmm mmm mmm today first two lesson history class again,slept for awhile.wake up watch the black and white videa..lols.then after that maths lesson,tcher today never teach alot leh just keep asking us do excerise nia.and i forgot to bring calculator again!later pack bag must remember put if not later jeanne angry sia..wahahas.recess ate mix rice,very very full can.

after recess is english,free period again cause she gt come in or dun have still the same.

then we are are talking abt miss egg breast..lol omg so flat can.today esp flat la,we keep thinking she got......lols.then f&n 4 periods,wtf everything also our fault,so zhen dui wo men.not only we talk only what ur other student A1 student also talking right.fcuk fcuk fcuk!and the stupid herw..,i throw rubbish right not playing right,shout at me.shout him back kp ah pang jiu say u want me to bring u down or what la.fcuk.

after school went hougang woth 3 j's,went there have our lunch at ljs then home.reach home at around 4 ba,actually going out de but end up never.tmr is havin maths test but dun care la casue is graph de study liao also failed de la.hahaha.end here le..nights.

i tot he will put her a double smiley...

cme talk about class t-shirt,it's blue colour:)then physis lesson i never sleep but i was day dreaming la,never go in my nao la.then jiu recess then history lsson,got back result get 7/25..lols.then maths lesson,was very sian lor.chem again never sleep but was staring at air uh?then assembly dame boring plus:(after school went purple building eat lunch with jeanne then back for school,she has drums i have bball.study time first,but did not study i like ki siao today keep jokes around and laughing.chia cb is more jialat then me la..keep say roar!!!!sound like roy uh...lols.studay over then went in room to watch videao,the match we against scgsafter that go mac with chia cn,eeni and qian li mouth.then after eating go ball awhile and bus home.walk a very very big round again before reaching home:)

faster sick please:(

alr tried my best to walk under the rain liao,still wont sick:(

上吐下泻:(

today morning have dunno what stupid check,all went up to stage accept me.i tot i bo taiji liao who know the mr dainel willam hunter jabarash dash say what my hair is long,just now mr danny walk pss and ask me to stage too.like so suay la,somemore go up de is those repeat never pin up,me first time leh,and just like that kana a green form,but who cares?lol.

then after that went in class at ard 8.45,tcher also never care abt us after that not long jiu went for mt lesson.went in class lie down on table,tcher give me do so do.like wth..i never sleep say i sleep i was doing work rite,dame kp la her like radio like that keep talking non stop de lor.dunno came from which channel de radio la..lols.then recess jiu makan lor,ate malay food today,very very full lor.

then have chem failed both my test,is okay i not interested in that subject plus tcher also never care de la.then jiu f&n,today mrs pang so good sia,give us eat ice cream never fa pi qi,qi ji ar.lols.maths lesson,boring still need stay back for remdia.mr neo say i keep miss his lesson becasue of bball so i keep copy-ing ppl work.well,i have nth to shoot him back.lols.

after remedia went backgate take bus with jeanne,take 25 she alight first then me alight at smk hub there.then train down to yishun,reach liao ying still haven reach,stay in yishun still so long la.waited for her ard half an hour lor!she reach liao jiu go nortpoing walk walk lor,bought socks and sweets..lols.saw kids eat also feel like eating so buy lor.lol.now i can anyhow waste 80 dollars,actually is wanted to buy a bag for yea..dun need now.omg i save so long:)

then jiu bus to ah ma house,keep thinking of eating what.so decide to eat sakura,but when we reach there is nt the sakura we want la.so we headed to hongkong cafe to eat,order quite alot of dishes plus quite nice.ard 6 plus we ate finsih ying sent ah ma home and i went off,bus home.

i told them i cant eat too full liao if nt sure vomit,really after i alight bus jitao vomit.like never eat dao things like that la.lols.

anyway anyway happy bday ah ma:)

did not take much photos:)

hello everybody,i am going to get over her from now on.no more tears for her.
casue i am a cheater to her,i am a person who cant be trust,everyone take note of this.
i am a person who wont cherish chances,like chances she give it to me i never cherish.
so now i ask her foranother chance she wont give cause i am super fan.
i will stop love-ing her..casue i cant as she dun wan to.
i just a sucker to her from now on.casue i cant be trust.
i say i wont drink but i drink again so i focre her that we cant be tgt.
now my r/s to her only teammate or nt even caus i dunno she want nt.
we are not talking to each other anymore cause i assum that.
everything i say her is wht i feel of myself none of her business.
and i wont spread thing bad about her to anyone cause she think i will.
i will continue my life without her from now on.
i quite smoking and stop drink from now on even u dun care and none of ur business. and see u belive me anot ?
and so what u belive u alr say is none of ur business ma.
but never regret with you.we are game over.

我讨厌阴天的风

冷得那么刺痛

只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞

昨天的风筝在角落

被谁丢到了路口

我很不想让你找到离开的理由

每一夜闭上眼睛

我看到了恶梦

你微笑但是旁边的人不是我

天空切开一道裂缝

直接割到我心中

不想装作脆弱

也不想爱得懦弱

其实我非常爱你不想失去你

难道我没有权利说我不愿意

你给了他的吻

虽然只有余温

可知道我多渴望抓住你的心

我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心

我每天假装开心害怕你离去

可不可以任性

求求你不要去

藏在我心里最后一句

其实还爱你

可不可以任性

求求你不要去

藏在我心里最后一句

其实还爱你

多么希望你能相信我

today pon social studies common teat and 2.4 run,dame shung dun need run.wahaha.today english lesson was so so,evertime also free period de la tcher also never care de.maths have homework but hack care la.seriously dun need study until so hardworking la,no point la.dun feel like study anymore la,pointless.then mt tcher never come so stay at usual class then need do test tgt with them la.then recess,after that pe skip my run:)after that jiu dismiss for match.

today is semi-final,against scgs and we won:)so ya our final will against cedar again lor.mr teo treat us dinner,he gave us 60 dollars then mr wimal give us 20 then we go eat zhu cha.ate until 5 plus bus 119 home.

but still raining so slack with huaiping,slack outside her house.drink a can of beer only,not much.hahas.around 7 rain turn smaller then went home.walk super super big round before reaching,whole body was wet cause was still raining ma.

okay nth much to say le.

now my life is smoke and drink nth else:)

cough cough cough..nt sleeping tonight tmr go school be pig:)
i have think over le,is time for you to belive me,serious!